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HAHA.
Not the funny kind-of HAHA, but the I-told-you-so-but-you-had-to-think-differently-dumbass kind-of HAHA.
Every day I am reminded of words that have stuck with me for, like, ever. One example is something my dad always told me, righty tighty, lefty loosey, and I always say that in my head as I turn the faucet on & off in the backyard. Another example is from my grandmother, nothing is ever just one color, and I always think that when I'm coloring/doodling. Today, I'm reminded by someone called Life with a HAHA, and I'm reminded that every time I run into the same problem with the same solution.
You wouldn't pay me enough to relive July 2008. In fact, I want to tear out the days off my calendar that were tragic. That's exactly what July 2008 can be described as: tragedy (of course, with a few awesome, perfect days with the best loving friends ever). August has been treating me well. So far, so good. No complaints. August can be described as hopeful. I'm regaining my hope day by day--my chin raising further up.
I ran into two awesome friends whom I haven't talked to or hung out with in forever as I was purchasing cedar wood for Senor BunBun's liter box. I was greeted by these two tall and wonderful friends excitedly. I was even more excited when they told me they are getting married next year! W00t. I'm so happy for them. But, for the cherry on top, I was told that she couldn't pass the Praxis, like me, and we're so ready to graduate! Well, this is the actual cherry: she informed me of a different route. A route without trying to pass the Praxis, which had me hurrying home to tell my mom. On Monday: I call for an advising appointment. Let's see how this works. Maybe I can take classes this fall, and maybe I can graduate this fall. But, nothing's in stone. And I don't like assuming because I hate getting my hopes up (something I'm way too familiar with always).
It's hard to stay optimistic when there's so much weight on disappointment and regret. Regardless of the little things, it's best not to forget the big goal. It's best not to forget that there are other options.
Here's to hope that soon my Hope Month will end, and part of everything will turn out okay.
Little by little, day by day.
Things will get better if you believe, and to believe you must make things happen.
*Deep Breath*
But sometimes, you're Lucky.
So!
I made a PlurkFlickr Manga Family Photo, and I would like to make a Vox Manga Family Photo too! If you want to join in, create your manga avatar here, and upload it either on flickr or photobucket. Send me the correct URL and I will add you to the Family Photo! And, there's a deadline... send it in by August 19th, and I'll upload it on August 20th. I'm going out of town on the 21st. I hope you send those in! Yay!
Not the funny kind-of HAHA, but the I-told-you-so-but-you-had-to-think-differently-dumbass kind-of HAHA.
Every day I am reminded of words that have stuck with me for, like, ever. One example is something my dad always told me, righty tighty, lefty loosey, and I always say that in my head as I turn the faucet on & off in the backyard. Another example is from my grandmother, nothing is ever just one color, and I always think that when I'm coloring/doodling. Today, I'm reminded by someone called Life with a HAHA, and I'm reminded that every time I run into the same problem with the same solution.
You wouldn't pay me enough to relive July 2008. In fact, I want to tear out the days off my calendar that were tragic. That's exactly what July 2008 can be described as: tragedy (of course, with a few awesome, perfect days with the best loving friends ever). August has been treating me well. So far, so good. No complaints. August can be described as hopeful. I'm regaining my hope day by day--my chin raising further up.
I ran into two awesome friends whom I haven't talked to or hung out with in forever as I was purchasing cedar wood for Senor BunBun's liter box. I was greeted by these two tall and wonderful friends excitedly. I was even more excited when they told me they are getting married next year! W00t. I'm so happy for them. But, for the cherry on top, I was told that she couldn't pass the Praxis, like me, and we're so ready to graduate! Well, this is the actual cherry: she informed me of a different route. A route without trying to pass the Praxis, which had me hurrying home to tell my mom. On Monday: I call for an advising appointment. Let's see how this works. Maybe I can take classes this fall, and maybe I can graduate this fall. But, nothing's in stone. And I don't like assuming because I hate getting my hopes up (something I'm way too familiar with always).
It's hard to stay optimistic when there's so much weight on disappointment and regret. Regardless of the little things, it's best not to forget the big goal. It's best not to forget that there are other options.
Here's to hope that soon my Hope Month will end, and part of everything will turn out okay.
Little by little, day by day.
Things will get better if you believe, and to believe you must make things happen.
*Deep Breath*
But sometimes, you're Lucky.
So!
I made a PlurkFlickr Manga Family Photo, and I would like to make a Vox Manga Family Photo too! If you want to join in, create your manga avatar here, and upload it either on flickr or photobucket. Send me the correct URL and I will add you to the Family Photo! And, there's a deadline... send it in by August 19th, and I'll upload it on August 20th. I'm going out of town on the 21st. I hope you send those in! Yay!
As much as my mood fluctuates in life, it's always best to be optimistic and to spread the happiness to everyone.
I've been doing well. I turned in my work uniform which felt like I was breaking up with a boyfriend of three years. I have a new job lined up, which is a sure thing--I just have to finish the application. Even though things right now aren't as I planned a year ago, there's no need to breakdown. I'm done with the breakdowns (but they're inevitable, i know), and right now I'm... doing well. Comme ci, comme ca.
There has been a huge wave of new manga avatars around, so I thought I'd favorite them and make a mosaic of all of them! Create your own here!
Anyway, nothing really to update. I've been eating healthy the past few days, and I went to the gym today. I'm getting serious with the losing weight thing. Haha. We'll see how long this lasts. Maybe until the dot days.
<3
Project Runway tonight^^
New The Hills Monday night^^
I'm almost finished with the Twilight Saga... more than half of Breaking Dawn finished!
I've been doing well. I turned in my work uniform which felt like I was breaking up with a boyfriend of three years. I have a new job lined up, which is a sure thing--I just have to finish the application. Even though things right now aren't as I planned a year ago, there's no need to breakdown. I'm done with the breakdowns (but they're inevitable, i know), and right now I'm... doing well. Comme ci, comme ca.
There has been a huge wave of new manga avatars around, so I thought I'd favorite them and make a mosaic of all of them! Create your own here!
Anyway, nothing really to update. I've been eating healthy the past few days, and I went to the gym today. I'm getting serious with the losing weight thing. Haha. We'll see how long this lasts. Maybe until the dot days.
<3
Project Runway tonight^^
New The Hills Monday night^^
I'm almost finished with the Twilight Saga... more than half of Breaking Dawn finished!
I took time with myself and got out of the house to go shopping. I felt all girly yesterday and looked at dresses at Forever 21. I found tons of dresses that I loved online, so I decided to go today. Unfortunately, I couldn't find the dresses I looked at online, but found a couple I thought were cute. I bought a black printed dress, and I thought it looked good on me; the dress fit me well and I liked it. I bought a black top (on sale) and a silver scarf from american eagle, and bought a new moleskin from B&N.
I'm a little weird and fully indecisive. For example, I cannot eat Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream anymore because I told myself, "Hey, this tastes like toothpaste!" And from there on I kept imagining myself swallowing a tube of toothpaste like one would do with cheese spray. Ew, that's right. So, I came home today and my mom wanted me to try on the dress I bought today. When she saw me, there was zero hint of a smile. "You look like you're wearing a paternity dress." ... -_- ... "Well, I'll keep this until I'm fucking pregnant then." (Okay, I didn't say the f-word, but I was thinking it). Now, every time I look at the dress, and I'm pretty sure every time I wear this dress, I'll feel like a little baby is growing inside me and I'm going to waddle like a duck.I'm so returning this dress next week. I'm bringing my mom with me and pout enough to squeeze out a Macbook Pro from her wallet. We'll see if that works.
Anyway, so, yeah. My girly days are over until I lose the 30lbs I vow to lose by the end of 2008.
As I was walking around the mall, my eyes caught a guy walking wearing this ugly shirt. I watched him walk into GameStop while his bros stood in line at Mrs. Fields Cookies. He lifted up the back of shirt and, instead of pulling up his pants, he pulled up his whitey tighties. I turned my head forward quickly.
I'm a little weird and fully indecisive. For example, I cannot eat Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream anymore because I told myself, "Hey, this tastes like toothpaste!" And from there on I kept imagining myself swallowing a tube of toothpaste like one would do with cheese spray. Ew, that's right. So, I came home today and my mom wanted me to try on the dress I bought today. When she saw me, there was zero hint of a smile. "You look like you're wearing a paternity dress." ... -_- ... "Well, I'll keep this until I'm fucking pregnant then." (Okay, I didn't say the f-word, but I was thinking it). Now, every time I look at the dress, and I'm pretty sure every time I wear this dress, I'll feel like a little baby is growing inside me and I'm going to waddle like a duck.I'm so returning this dress next week. I'm bringing my mom with me and pout enough to squeeze out a Macbook Pro from her wallet. We'll see if that works.
Anyway, so, yeah. My girly days are over until I lose the 30lbs I vow to lose by the end of 2008.
As I was walking around the mall, my eyes caught a guy walking wearing this ugly shirt. I watched him walk into GameStop while his bros stood in line at Mrs. Fields Cookies. He lifted up the back of shirt and, instead of pulling up his pants, he pulled up his whitey tighties. I turned my head forward quickly.